attention

Girls crave so much for the big A --attention, and so I do. Oftentimes questions come poking inside whether or not I receive what I really deserve. Am I getting enough time and passion, or am I asking way beyond what is just normal? Attention is admittedly so vital to everyone.

Feeling unemotional and reserved at times, to myself I unconsciously utter, "I keep doing everything I'm supposed to do for him but I still don't think he loves me enough." Sounds familiar, isn't it? But for saying this, I don't know that I want attention just for being and trying to get it for what I do instead. I think I'm going for it but actually running from it while working so hard. I simply refuse to take time to absorb any love that he does have for me. Instead of taking a few seconds to grab and feel good about the attention I really get, I just forge ahead doing more and more as if I'm into some kind of a race.

Lessons appear more valuable when learned the painful way. Then I sussed that the attention I get today will be gone tomorrow so I don't need to "gather" it. I have to take the time to enjoy it, here and now!

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