a past love loving someone new

What you do not know won't hurt you, they say. But to me, things I just happened to know made me stronger and more dependent on God's master plan in my life.

It’s been ages and I am more quite sure now than ever about my emotional stability. Way before, when I was seeing unsolicited photos and hearing stories I never wanted to know anymore, I would always frown and not only that, I cried myself to sleep every passing night and all of these crazy days were thankfully gone. 
 
By choice, I turned my back away from a story I once embraced as my own, one which the Lord didn’t want me to choose but still I deliberately insisted to try anyway. The pain relevant to separation is still very fresh in my mind but it doesn’t hurt a thing anymore as I attempted to measure my tolerance to witness (again) the anguishing scenario of a past love loving someone new now. It was in fact satisfying to finally see things clearer today after the barren years of waiting together for nothing. It has ended because we’re purposed to meet another person designed to complement our being, and admittedly, I wasn’t that girl for him and he neither was for me. He must have found his other pair and though I opted to live life outside extra-romantic relationships for quite some time, still I believe that God’s grace will shine on me at the perfect time and for the person whose heart is grown and born to love Him. 

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