Tuesday, February 08, 2011
Born a honeymoon baby, I am only twenty years younger than Mom. At my age, she already got eight-year-old and four-year-old girls. The thought of marrying early did haunt my parents for the past 29 years of their life together (it's their anniversary today, by the way!). They worried that come I finish college, I would probably jump to having my own family, just like them. Each relationship I had brought them to fragments of parental paranoia.
All girls believe that alongside wifehood, being a mother is the highest feminine fulfillment ever dreamed about. What hurts most in every broken relationship is that shattered desire to start sowing my own family tree. Sometimes I end up questioning myself if I really wasn’t worth keeping, or if I fell short of those men’s expectations on a potential mother in me. But all these silliness draw me into realizing that it is actually the other way around. It all ended either because my time hasn’t arrived yet –I still need to mature to be at my best, or God is currently molding the heart of the man who so deserves my preciousness.
After a year or two, this blog’s readers and I have the chance to look back again to this post. Who knows that by then I shall have two lovely boys already –my husband and our firstborn! The best of the future is at all cost worth the long wait.
All girls believe that alongside wifehood, being a mother is the highest feminine fulfillment ever dreamed about. What hurts most in every broken relationship is that shattered desire to start sowing my own family tree. Sometimes I end up questioning myself if I really wasn’t worth keeping, or if I fell short of those men’s expectations on a potential mother in me. But all these silliness draw me into realizing that it is actually the other way around. It all ended either because my time hasn’t arrived yet –I still need to mature to be at my best, or God is currently molding the heart of the man who so deserves my preciousness.
After a year or two, this blog’s readers and I have the chance to look back again to this post. Who knows that by then I shall have two lovely boys already –my husband and our firstborn! The best of the future is at all cost worth the long wait.
Posted in: current events,prayers,starting anew
4 comments:
painful and happy moments in our lives always happen for a purpose.There are so much things left unanswered but at the end of it, it is just a part of our life's journey and we have no choice but to be in it and move on.There is always hope and each one of us always deserve second chances ;)... love you Dai Ning...thank you for being such an inspiration :)
when is there anniversary? 7th or 8th?.coz today (8th) isa special day fow me and my hon too *giggles*
you're right pricking accountant! God is still molding the perfect man for you,,and the moment he finds you, you will be forever happy,,as i always tell my broken friends "If you were happy with the wrong one, how much more when the right one comes?"..
right? *munching chocos*
love..love..
typo *there* --their..
eating chocos with nuts makes me..makes me..bean...
where'e my ice cyeam??
daddy!! ning li ate my ice cyeam!
@Sie: I gain higher inspiration from this life God has orchestrated for me. ;')
@Bean: Today, 8th! It's your anniversary too? Yihee! ♥
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