Thursday, January 19, 2012
Fine, if you want an honest answer: No, I am not alright.
The situation had tossed me and my bond with these people to and fro that even in the most familiar path, I was losing my way back. I chose gradual detachment over standard comfort because this is all what it should be, I surmise. Asking me why repeatedly is just so obnoxious, pounding my heart harder to let go.
You are precious and I too. Maybe it is safer to admit it is less cruel to lose you than it is to lose myself. I wasn’t so much of a person when we first met but I was trying to build myself up until the unexpected happened. I was grabbed of something I thought was getting so near to take hold of. Nobody seized it from me, it was given to you. It pains even more to accept that what I was aiming for all this time was rewarded to you. I am happy for you but sad for myself and the feeling totally sucks!
I want to heal and the only remedy is to pull myself out from the pile of burning coals.
The situation had tossed me and my bond with these people to and fro that even in the most familiar path, I was losing my way back. I chose gradual detachment over standard comfort because this is all what it should be, I surmise. Asking me why repeatedly is just so obnoxious, pounding my heart harder to let go.
You are precious and I too. Maybe it is safer to admit it is less cruel to lose you than it is to lose myself. I wasn’t so much of a person when we first met but I was trying to build myself up until the unexpected happened. I was grabbed of something I thought was getting so near to take hold of. Nobody seized it from me, it was given to you. It pains even more to accept that what I was aiming for all this time was rewarded to you. I am happy for you but sad for myself and the feeling totally sucks!
I want to heal and the only remedy is to pull myself out from the pile of burning coals.
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